Need to completely change my life. New name ( Camera ), a job ( dancer ), different food ( only protein ); totally invisible ( no attractive or revealing clothes ). No references ( I popped out of Athena's thigh! ), kill exchanged looks ( no new lovers ) and expectations ( I won't be on time....or even where I said ). Anonymous. Different. Grey hair, soft, check ear wax. Love no one but embrace whoever crosses my path. No need for manufactured beauty. Cut my hair myself...well that's extreme...but it does grow back!

Ride a horse in Wyoming, eat in Chinatown in SF, catch fish in the river Test, honor vespers, memorize a poem. Sing hymns with my Mom in the car... I Come to the Garden Alone and Waiting for my Child to Come Home. Cedar Street, Mister Bass and Mister Arlington; miss my Daddy.

So many people who love me and so many loves in my brief life. Overwhelming, my charmed life.

I have very ugly feet but I love them!

Denmark musing....

It's 10:30am and I'm back in bed after having successfully made coffee, cut and arranged some beautiful roses in the garden. We've been staying up until midnight marveling at the light skies and the fresh flower perfumed air: Magritte with scratch and sniff.

Short plane travel between radically different cultures is exhausting. Visuals and social cues are thrown off: movement, clothes, eye contact, personal space, voice, tone, children's behavior.

Heat turpitude vanishes in this clear, crisp climate; the streets are eerily quiet in the evening, no jumbling rush in the piazza, no voices calling. Families glimpsed at windows, hanging lamps and fair bowed heads: quiet, tranquil.

When you don't worry about anything, when you can do whatever your heart or mind wishes, when the things you want are all within easy reach...are you satisfied? For me, the answer is "yes". I don't want more than I have, I have everything that I need and I think I'm the luckiest person in the world.

Those men, with pants pulled high, waists cinched; lacking crotch or behind,

I long for summers long past

and the safety of encircling with one arm,

a plaided leg.